“Be yourself!”
Good advice, right?
We’re often told this is the key to making friends, having good relationships, meeting romantic partners. And it sounds so simple. However, it is one of the hardest things to do, because it is frightening. What if being myself isn’t good enough? It’s a very human need we have to belong and to feel accepted, so we often go to great lengths to try to make that happen. And one of the ways we do that is by wearing different masks.
Wearing a mask involves adopting a persona or playing a different version of ourselves, while hiding the bits we don’t like. We try to figure out what other people might want from us, and give that to them. At the same time, we try to conceal anything about us that might lead to rejection. There are many different masks we wear
The happy mask
This mask means always being happy and cheerful, and never showing anyone that we are feeling sad or broken inside. It means sharing smiling selfies on social media, while not telling anyone that things are bad at home or that sometimes we just can’t get out of bed.
The coping mask
This mask means never showing weakness or doubt or struggle. With this mask on, we convince everyone that we are coping with everything on our plate, that we know what we’re doing and we are able to manage. Inside we might feel like we are lost, drowning or utterly helpless.
The helping mask
This helping mask is what we wear when we don’t feel we are worth others’ time and attention, so we make sure we are always the one helping and taking care of others. We put the needs of others first at all times, and become the ultimate people-pleaser, never saying no to anyone. We won’t ask for help, and we certainly never admit when we start to feel resentful of how unbalanced our relationships are becoming.
The uncaring mask
We wear an uncaring mask when we don’t want to show any vulnerability or weakness. We pretend things don’t affect us, even when they hurt us deeply. We pretend we don’t care about certain things or people, because we fear being mocked for it. We feign indifference to avoid being seen as needy. We pretend not to want something for fear of being disappointed if we don’t get it.
The perfect mask
The perfect mask is what we wear when we think parts of ourselves are unlovable so we must hide them away at all costs. We hide our faults, our flaws, our insecurities and our failures. We avoid trying new things unless we know we will succeed. We keep a wall up to ensure no one sees our darker side.
The chameleon mask
With the chameleon mask, we constantly adapt ourselves to who we’re with. We never confront or challenge anyone, or express strong opinions. We exhibit the characteristics we think people are looking for, and these change as we move from one situation to another. We shave off all the edges of our personality that might be seen as strange, and eventually find that we can’t even remember who our true self is.
So what’s the problem with wearing a mask?
- It’s exhausting
It is so tiring and draining to pretend to be someone you’re not, and to pretend you feel something different to what you do feel.
- It’s unsatisfying
There is something depressing about living an inauthentic life. When we aren’t being true to ourselves, we can be left with a niggling sense of something not being right. Even if we have loads of friends, we can be left feeling isolated and alone. We can feel lost and at sea.
- It doesn’t work
The fact is that even if superficially our masks are fooling people, that doesn’t give us the sense of acceptance or belonging that we are looking for. It can actually make us feel worse, because it strengthens our belief that we are only accepted because people aren’t seeing the real us. It can leave with a strong sense of ‘Imposter Syndrome’, that we are fakes who are going to be ‘found out’ at any moment.
As scary as it is, we need to start experimenting with letting the mask slip. It’s a risky thing, like any choice we make that requires us to be vulnerable. But imagine the relief of having even one person with whom we can be truly ourselves – our messy, flawed, dark, weird and authentic selves. Imagine the freedom of not having to worry what other people will think of every single choice we make.
Ask yourself if the masks you wear are truly helping you, and what might happen if you took them off. Experiment a little with small risks, and don’t be disheartened if it doesn’t go well every time. The experiment itself is an act of courage for which you can be very proud. We can’t control other people’s reactions, but we can experience the freedom that comes from not trying to.